weird feelings.
Sunday, April 22, 2007, 12:22 AM
nothing special for friday lesson. jus trying my very best to study accounts which i suck at it. but it seems fine till now. =)

went west coast for volley actually jus played a set den nv play le. weird to have a girl in them. there are stuff did happen that i really wish to type hre but i guess better not due to personal reasons. mayb all i can is only to type my feelings in here.

i did not regret falling in love with you. and maybe cos im so and too into you, i guess im jus to clinging to you. and maybe also im jus very selfish. i cant accept your past. all i tink is why am i able do it if im in your shoe and not thinking in another angle that im jus not you? maybe there is jus some reasons behind that i wont know. whenever i feel like talking to someone i wont know who to turn to. there're jus many factors to consider upon choosing. so ive chosen to keep silent and hoping everything will be fine the very next day when i open my eyes.

although im having all these thoughts in my mind. i'll stay strong and definately continue to be very into you my boy. in every relationship there's always obsticles for us to face it and overcome together. so i wont be defeated by this issue that jus happened. im reacting that way last night maybe i jus din cool down and really think bout it. im sorry.

as for tonight guess it'll be sth different cos im going to bed without you ending off my day with your voice. but its ok, i'll imagine you talking to me. haha. jus for everyone's info. he off to some place for relaxation with the help of some loud music. btw. he is hot when he dance =D.

great. tml i'll be earning some income although its like only mayb 50bucks?! haha. and i jus heard from my daddykin that i spent like 2k+ for the holidays so im really feeling broke. boring! manage to do quite alot of things tonight. doing notes for accounts, sorting out the songs for him, getting my nails trim neat and nice. and getting all ready to do some shopping wit jacqueline tml! oh... thats jus so sweet. =D he's gonna be busy so its time for my girlfriends instead. gonna have fish and co. so excited. gonna have an agenda for tml. getting my eyebrows done, finding simple tops. and of course enjoy myself.

guess today's entry is really long cos im jus too free. so shldnt kill those peps who are reading actually ( which i doubt there are ).


i would be incomplete
and
my life would be black and white
without you...